Last night, I had a dream in which I was facilitating a large group & about to speak on this subject;
"What's right for me?"
That was when I woke up....& I've been wondering ever since...what was I going to say?
So, I thought I'd sit down & write whatever comes now & hopefully discover what I might have said, as far as I can know!
What's right for me?
This question is more complex than it might seem. To start with, how do I know what's right for me?
There are so many elements of the sentence to wonder about, such as~the definition of 'right'
For many of us, what we are likely to know more about is the concept of what's 'wrong' for us, roughly translated as 'things I dislike'. It's not really a 'glass half empty' or negative approach, it's just the way some brains are wired.....so I guess I could begin my wondering there?
On a surface level, I can probably provide some information about what I like to eat or how I like to spend my time 'off'.....but whether they are 'right' for me........? And would that be the best way to ponder the question? You see, in just contemplating the question what I get is more questions rather than answers. In my world, that makes this a really good question, so I'm happy at least! Oh, but wait....is that the answer?
I'm reminded of the really big questions like: Who am I? (In order to begin exploring the idea of 'me')
Why am I here? (in order to begin exploring what I 'should' be doing)
It's only early morning still, not long since this dream seed was planted & I'm already captivated by the question & no nearer to why I might have been talking about this subject to a large number of people....since in my conscious state I appear not to know what the question really means, let alone what the answer is!
The 12th Century Sufi Mystic Rumi pondered a different question:
"Who is it that lives here in the centre of my chest?"
There is a sense in which I can describe what I look like, & some of what I like to do, what I believe in, hope for, feel 'right' doing......but I'm still surprised by choices I'm discovering & not entirely sure where all my choices & sense of 'me' originates. So, I'm with Rumi on this one; there must be another part of my identity living somewhere within my system that I know less about. Perhaps that 'I' knows what's right for me?
I do believe that my Soul, the eternal aspect of my being probably knows something about this question. In the Soulcentric approach to Dreamwork (not interpreting dreams but taking the metaphorical associations absolutely seriously as representations having meaning) we learn that the individual Soul is also called the Dream Maker & is responsible for using images & words in our dreams for the purpose of initiating our ego into the deeper wisdom of our soul life & purpose. That's a way I could approach my dream...
A teacher part of my identity is sharing information with other parts of me. That would suggest 'I' do know what's right for me.....but not always consciously. I trust that my Soul knows & I'm also willing to trust that if I keep wondering & being curious, & paying attention to the question.....it may help me stay on the 'right' road.
Kierkegaard said: "Life can only be lived forwards, but can only be understood backwards"
I'm very happy to keep noticing & reflecting on any information I get about the question...'what's right for me'?
I will make a commitment to that.
"Attention is the beginning of devotion"
I love to notice, & to wonder & to journal on the things I wonder about: as the poet David Whyte says ~to "overhear myself saying things I didn't know I knew"